Whatever was going around found me and brought misery with it. The tele- nurse, the Doctor and your friends say, “yes its a bug.” If you live alone and if you take any medication that involves your heartbeat and if you are elderly… one is limited to what one can take to knock that little…

February is a month I prefer to avoid and yet here we are again. This month contains the anniversary date of my husband’s death and many memories of that experience are top of my mind. I asked a friend the other day about her and her spouse celebrating that day. They responded very casually that…

Four years ago on January third, my life changed forever. My husbands death didn’t occur on Jan 3, but his stroke took him away from our ordinary and uneventful life. His humor was deceased, his memory was deleted, and his decision-making skills were terminated. I automatically went into my default setting which is caregiving, organizing…

Living in a small town is such a blessing and I love attending a small country church. This is the same church you have heard me talk about and shared how these praying, loving folks have carried me through since the death of my husband almost four years ago. I would not change where I…

Sorry to be down for such a long time, I was attacked by bots in my comments section…200 of them… yikes. It took forever to ratify that issue. Another holiday season is here and I was having real time thoughts on the annual celebration. In 1971 we got married in September and bought a house…

I was having one of those sad forlorn days. Wallering around in sloppy clothes, hair un styled. face in natural state, no make-up, no eyebrows. I was sinking lower and slower and more forlorn by the minute when guilt got me and I decided to make a treat. Self talk won the deal with the…

What a week. Just when you think you have started to move on, the road gets muddy. I am able to sing in church and not tear up over most songs. I can share my experience with the death of my husband without crying. I can look at his picture every night before I close…

First of all I want to apologize to those of you who have been waiting for the next message. I am now back, trying to share my journey with those of you that are interested in listening and learning. I have had a bad virus, hip replacement, my son had heart surgery and darn if…

I have gotten rid of boatloads of stuff since my husbands death. I had a pile of metal items and had good intentions to take them to the recycle place and get a few dollars. I also had a metal swing out in the front yard that we used to spend our evenings on, planning,…

I am continually cleaning and purging at my house. I find myself being overwhelmed with guilt feelings for having so much STUFF and not wanting my children to overdo, when I’ve gone to join Dad. I have journaled for years and years and have thrown most of those books into the trash. I thought I…