Whatever was going around found me and brought misery with it. The tele- nurse, the Doctor and your friends say, “yes its a bug.” If you live alone and if you take any medication that involves your heartbeat and if you are elderly… one is limited to what one can take to knock that little bug down a notch. Misery does not like company and that is the only thing with a plus mark on the grief journey.

When my husband was alive he brought me food and drink and meds and honestly annoyed me to no end. Now that he is no longer here I regret my cranky attitude and would give a lot to have him here again. Wishing and hoping is not a feasible solution when dealing with “The Bug”, so laying down for almost ten days was how I spent this gorgeous Spring weather. Mixing up dates is a common thing for me but I know God does not make mistakes and we never really got winter this year so Spring is upon us.

I find myself at a crossroads and that “bugs” me. This year I went through all the anniversary dates, the stroke, the death, the funeral and His birthday without melting into a puddle of sorrow. 4 years have now passed. NOW WHAT??? I wonder how many of you are at this place and how others handle it.

Last year I had a new hip installed and I am finally healed and ready to get back to exercising and losing a few pounds. A dilemma is before me and I need some input from all of you about this form of media. This blog has been so cathartic for me and I hope for some of you. I stated a few times that you never get over having a loved one pass away you just learn to live around your grief. It starts out over whelming who you are and gradually diminishes into what it means to go on with life in whatever forms you choose. Please make a response yay or nay and I will decide how beneficial this form of communication is.

I am a born-again evangelical Christian. My life revolves around God and the plan he has for me and that is obvious in these posts. I will continue to pray about this blog and pray you will give me your honest opinions.

For I know these plans I have for you, says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray , I will listen. Jeremiah 29:11-13